Victim to Narcissistic Relationships
Even if you’ve become well aware of how damaging its effects are to your spirit, you may still find it incredibly difficult to leave a narcissistic relationship. Because narcissists don’t respect boundaries, they become enmeshed, and leaving them doesn’t just feel like you’re losing the relationship, but a piece of yourself
. That’s why, even if you’re separated from a narcissist, you may find it hard to move on with your life. You might find yourself thinking about them constantly, or feel a pressing need to contact them to see how they’re doing, to try to make yourself understood or try to make things right. Every time we reconnect with narcissistic abusers despite our better knowledge, we sink further and further into our feeling of powerlessness. And because narcissistic relationships are socially isolating, leaving may also mean you’re quite literally alone for a period of time.
Narcissistic Abuse Trauma
Being in a narcissistic relationship is, by nature, traumatic. Narcissist’s manipulations are disorienting to the point where we may feel completely lost, disconnected from reality. Their venomous criticisms cut deep, and become so internalized that they’re hard to extract. As you begin your treatment process, you may feel surges of anger as you realize the extent of what you endured. You may experience memories all over again, or have strong physical reactions to what you begin to uncover. Many people who have survived narcissistic abuse carry anger – consciously or unconsciously – with them for years after the relationship. That anger, which results from a triggering experience, often ends up getting misdirected as emotions you haven’t fully processed from the past are projected onto someone else. This only makes you feel more ashamed, guilty and out of touch with who you really are – which is why it’s so important to learn how to thoroughly process it and move it safely through and out of you.